The Business of Living, October 18, 2010

What follows is the story of my Afghanistan 2010 deployment--the story of unmet plans and expectations, the story of exceeding dreams that I am not creative enough to imagine, and the story of my homecoming tragedy.

I was destined for Kuwait, to a 12 hour a day job, to completion of my military studies, and to be in ½ marathon shape. I ended up in Afghanistan—in a 15-17 hour a day job, with no studies, and returned home out of shape. Yet in submission to the will of the military, submission to something outside of myself and far greater than myself, I am a much richer person.

It is only a part of the tale, the part that I was able to share with my Dad. I have many other stories and pictures to share, but for now, I need to leave the story alone and get on with the business of living.

In June I received an award from the Nevada Air Guard for my prior deployment in 2003/04. Since I was again deployed, they presented the award to my Dad. He was a member of the Nevada Air Guard and he accepted the award in front of the whole Air Wing. He was my military inspiration and I am thrilled that he knew that. Here are my favorite pictures from the awards ceremony.

I hope you enjoy the story.




Epilogue 2, August 15, 2010

I had hoped to expand upon my Aug 4 epilogue post, as there are still many more "gains" from my deployment to think about and quantify, but I think it is done for now.  Still, I wanted to let you all know that I am doing fine and give you an update.

A week has passed since the memorial for my father and I am starting to get my thinking cap back on. However, I am finding that my thoughts are split in too many directions. I wanted to spend some time reflecting on my deployment…it was so eventful and was a life changing experience. I need to spend time on Air War College…I have to test before the end of the month. I have a rewarding job I need to get back to. I need to spend time with my family, undistracted. People think I have it easy because I don’t have kids. Their wrong—I have a large extended family that rely on me just as much.

Such is life for a citizen soldier…life balance is never easy, it is just more complicated when you throw in military demands, in addition to work and family demands. I've always said that life for a citizen soldier is like sitting on a three legged stool...it takes a lot of core strength to keep everything in balance. So, it is time to prioritize and get busy.

I am taking my first of seven tests on Tuesday, then heading to North Dakota to drive with my nephew from Minot Air Force Base to Las Vegas so he can start school at UNLV using his hard earned GI Bill. He completes his active duty tour on August 19, so naturally, I hope to recruit him into the Nevada Air National Guard during this trip :) My husband will meet me in Vegas and we will spend a few days at the Venetian relaxing by the pool, where my neice works as a pool side attendant...I think we'll need lots of towels, water, and fruit, in separate trips, of course. She is also a student at UNLV and she made the reservations for us...I think she made them for days that she doesn't work...she is pretty clever that way. We come home in time for me to test again, if needed (God forbid), then off to Burning Man! We are taking another of my neices with us to Burning Man, and it will be wonderful seeing everything through her eyes. Finally, I'll be back to work around September 15.

Thanks again for your thoughts and support, for your support of our nation's military and especially our citizen soldiers.

Home, August 5, 2010

Thank you all for your love and support over the last six months. I wanted to let you know that I made it home safely last night. Unfortunately, I came home to bad news. My father passed away unexpectedly on August 3. I missed him by one day. He was my friend, my mentor and my moral compass.

I appreciate your love and support over the next couple of weeks, but I really am not up to having visitors. The memorial will be on Sunday at 2:00 at the Lord of Mercy Lutheran Church at 3400 Pyramid way (corner of Pyramid and Queen Way).

Epilogue 1, August 3 & 4, 2010

When we arrived at Baltimore, the USO had 20 or more volunteers cheering us on. They had cow bells and whistles and made us feel really good. They also handed out goodie packages. That was a great welcome home. The USO is everywhere there are American troops, providing food, phones and internet, all free. What a great organization…it made me think of another possible activity in retirement…work for the USO.

As I review the last six months, it now all seems like a dream. The deployment was nothing like I thought it was going to be, and I didn’t achieve any of my personal goals—to finish Air War College, come home in ½ marathon shape and be a much better swimmer so as to start triathlon training. You would think that I would be disappointed, but I can’t find any disappointment in me. In the military, personal goals are always secondary to meeting the mission. Yet you are expected to have personal educational and fitness goals (this is one of the things that I like about the military) but they are always subjugated to the mission, as happened on this deployment.

I gained so much more as a human being, as a member of the military and as a leader on this deployment than I ever dreamed would be possible. Yet, I am having a hard time capturing these gains in words.

My stint at USFOR-A, approximately 5 months, is distinctly divided into two parts, marked by a change in leadership after the first three months. It is with sadness that I say that the energy and momentum of the first set of leadership was stifled by the second set of leadership (not intentionally). It was hard to stand by and watch it happen. My own trajectory in learning and contributing was meteoric the first three months, and then leveled out. I just can’t stop thinking on what we could have achieved if we could have continued on that trajectory, yet I am also grateful that I got another hour of sleep the last two months I was there…primarily because things were not as urgent anymore (influence of the new leadership). All around me, I could see that people did less because the new leadership expected less. To me, that is a sad commentary on the new leadership! This was a trap that I saw and tried to avoid, yet as I’ve already stated, I did get more sleep. :)

I was considered a rabble rouser many times, because I just couldn’t keep my mouth shut. To the old leadership, that just got me more work. To the new leadership, I just got blank stares. I swear I heard crickets some times. Most of the time, I got “that’s not my (our) job”. I was there to work. To do less or do nothing is a waste of my time, energy and talent (indeed, I could have gotten away with doing nothing). So, I just had to learn which battles to pick, and which things to do anyway. I reverted to my old favorite, ask forgiveness rather than permission. So, I guess that is the number one thing I learned—my time, energy and talent is mine alone, and I’m not about to let my environment be an excuse for squandering it.

Pitch and Catch, July 30, 2010

Well, the time has arrived for my last update from the desert. I feel lucky to have had this opportunity, and I am the richer for it. I worked side by side with our soldiers, sailors, airman and marines for the last six months, during one of the biggest logistics challenges our military has faced. I am humbled to the core with the dedication of our military members. Members of the active duty logistic community deploy frequently…most are deployed 50% of the time. This is the life they chose, but that doesn’t mean it is easy, and it still takes a personal toll.

People are asking me some tough questions. Is it worth it? Are we making a difference? Can we succeed? The answer is definitely yes to all, but as a nation, we must commit wholeheartedly and then stay the course. Of course some of the news is bad news…what did people expect when we increased operations and send more troops into Afghanistan? The Taliban is no push over (and they fight dirty), but we committed to go after them, so let’s not get feint hearted now. We need to learn from these days, adapt and carry on. We simply need to adapt faster than the enemy can. We are a much larger force, and consequently, we don’t adapt as easily. We also need our nation’s other instruments of power (diplomatic, economic) equally engaged, perhaps more so. We will not succeed if it is treated simply as a military operation.

I received an award last Friday. After the General spoke and gave me the award, the floor was mine. Here is a recap what I said.

This whole thing is one giant game of pitch and catch. The Central Command Deployment and Distribution Operations Center (CDDOC), the US Transportation Command (TRANSCOM) and the Surface Deployment and Distribution Center (SDDC) are the strategic movement partners and are the “pitchers”, and the folks in Afghanistan…US Forces-Afghanistan (USFOR-A) and it’s down trace units (Joint Sustainment Command-Afghanistan, the Sustainment Brigades, the Aerial Ports, etc.) are the “catchers”. The benefactors of the incredible game are, of course, the war fighter. Once the catch is made, (whether it be people, unit cargo, theater provided equipment and the like), the war fighter goes off to do their mission. Their mission is the “why” we are all here.

The impression we (the strategic partners) leave can set the tone for their entire deployment. It can set them up for success or it can set them up for failure. It can certainly impact their morale, which, in turn impacts the war fight. What kind of impression do we want to leave? The answer is obvious.

With that being said, I have a few thoughts to share with you about my deployment here and why I believe it was successful.

As CDDOC’s representative in Afghanistan, it was often my job to explain rules behind this massive game of pitch and catch. In order to do that, I had to first know the rules. No matter your background, no one really knows what the need to know when they get here. You are simply thrown in the deep and of the pool and you are expected to swim like hell. Therefore, the relationships you build, and your willingness to learn and be mentored will be integral to your success. Every time I got on the phone with one of you here…and that happened a lot…you took your time with me and was patient. Whether it was one of the Air Force sergeants on the ITARS desk, one of the Navy Petty Officers in the surface and sustainment branch or a Navy Lieutenant in the Single Ticket Tracker program, you taught me and you mentored me, so that I could teach others. In this way, the full force and effect of CDDOC is be projected forward into Afghanistan, and brought to bear in the war fight.

The morale of this story is that you find mentors where THEY are, not where you are. The traditional role models for mentors—those that are higher in rank, have the same skill set, or are in the same service--do not work well in a joint environment. You must look everywhere for mentors, not just the traditional places.

So, thank you for spending your time, energy and effort on me—you made me much more effective than I could have been on my own—you were a true force multiplier, and that is a WIN for the war fighter.

Then, I saluted the CDDOC.

Persian Gulf, July 26, 2010

We held a going away for our General, Major General McMahan on Sunday. We got to go to a resort on the beach for a few hours and forget where we were. He said that it was his gift to us—that he wanted it to be our day, not his. Nice thought, but we only got to do it because he is leaving!

This is some of our crew at the beach.
Note the Hooka Pipes!
You see them everywhere here.
We had an excellent buffet dinner at the resort. It was typical Middle Eastern menu: pita bread, pestos, a variety of salads, cucumbers, cheese, olives and the like. There was also beef, chicken and killer lamb chops. My favorite was the hummus spread…yum.

After dinner, the general spoke about our accomplishments over the last six months. He noted that the concurrent Iraq drawdown and Afghanistan plus up has been determined to be the biggest logistical operation since the World War II build up. He discussed that there have been many naysayers out there that said we couldn’t do it, and we did. There are deadlines for certain things, set inside the beltway, and we were on time or ahead of schedule on everything.

I feel privileged to have been in the “fight” at this time. I was personally involved in bringing 30,000 troops and their equipment into Afghanistan. I was intimately involved in bringing in two major army combat brigades. I have made such great friends in these and many other units. I am so sad to leave them behind!

I will tell you that my impressions of the Marines are that they have their shit together. They used the same air and ground lift systems as the other services, but we rarely heard a peep out of them.

My impression of the Navy is largely the same as Marines, and I was surprised at how large the Navy presence was in a country that is land locked! It turns out the Navy does most of the base construction. Because of their construction mission, they deploy with the “big-uglies”—bull dozers, well rigs, etc. These things are tricky to move, but we got ‘er done. I also met quite a number of Navy folks on individual assignments (like mine). It turns out that I liked every submariner I met (3). There is definitely a “type” that ends up being a submariner.

Another remarkable thing about the military is this: The war is fought, at almost every level, by “pickup” players. Meaning that there was a determination of the kind and size of the force, and then the Services went out and picked the next people and units in line to deploy. No one was handpicked to be here--we are all here simply because our number came up. There are no superstars, there is no A-team. You just play the position that is assigned to you to the best of your ability. In most cases, the assigned position lines with your skill set, but not always. When it doesn’t line up, your willingness to learn and be mentored is all that matters, and this also dictates your success (I’ve seen a couple of the unwilling be moved and even seen someone be sent home).

The military is moving towards fewer specialists and more generalists. I have not been a fan of this concept, but now I have a new understanding of why they are doing it. This proves to me, once again, that the core competency that leadership should be focusing on first is attitude; skill set is important but is secondary to having the right attitude.


We sat pool side waiting for dinner. I got to chat with these girls, who spoke just enough English so that we could get to know each other.  They seemed to be enamored by me and another girl in our group, and they wanted to know our names and who we were with (large group, all male but us). First I said friends, but they didn’t seem to get it.  Then I wondered if they were asking with MAN we were with!  After that I just said we are all family, and that seemed to satisfy them.  They had a young boy with them that I think they were explaining that they were with him, meaning that they couldn’t go out without a man…note the boy was younger than all the girls but one.


Into The Fire, July 18, 2010

I got to leave Afghanistan a little earlier than I thought. There is a conference in Kabul on the day that I planned to leave, and the roads were rumored to be going “black”, meaning no travel. Rather than risk getting delayed, I left early.

Being in the Air Force means you get to know pilots. There are a number of pilots working for CDDOC, and these pilots happen to know the schedulers for airlift for distinguished visitors (DVs). So, not only did I get to leave early, I left in a C-20, which is what the Air Force calls a Gulfstream 3. What a sweet ass ride. If that wasn’t good enough, the flight attendant cooked up and served a great meal from scratch. This guy usually serves 4 star generals, including General Patraeus. He has also worked on Air Force One and served George and Laura Bush! He got the raw ingredients from the chow hall, so it proves that the food is good to start with and it is all a matter of the skill of the cooker.

So, here I sit, writing these notes, on the airplane. I am marveling that I have my own table, my legs are stretched out long, two of my traveling companions are also on their computers, one with a joystick, playing a football game.

We were told that there is an aircrew jinx. If you get on the a/c and start celebrating and taking pictures, it will break. You have to wait to celebrate until your divert point is no longer back to where you started. In our case, we decided that we had to wait (and be calm, cool and collected), until our divert point was no longer Afghanistan or Pakistan, which meant UAE. We asked the pilot to let us know when we were at that point, which he did. We looked out the window to see the outline of the palm tree island in the water, and then we started taking pictures and laughing.

I couldn’t wait to get off of NKC so that I would have nothing to do, and so be able to reflect on things and write something really brilliant. However, my mind is blank. It all seems like a dream.
Well, I made it out of the frying pan….and straight into the fire…it was 119 degrees in Kuwait when I arrived (Sunday), and it is 106 degrees, right now, at 10:00 at night. No matter…a little over 2 weeks and I am home.

The Bright Idea Fairy, July 11, 2010

Since I first got here, I’ve noticed that people that are about to depart seem to get these bright ideas about how things ought to be. They scurry around trying to accomplish all these new ideas, or try to convince those that will be here for a while that they ought to do them. They go around to the leadership to sell their ideas, thinking that if the leadership buys off on it, then those that are left will have to do it. We see this again and again, and all the while, I keep thinking “why didn’t you do that while you were here”?

Well, it happened. I’ve been visited by the bright idea fairy. It is like she came flittering around with fairy dust, and now I have clarity on a few things that need to be done, or need to be done differently. As I try to make things happen, I can see the look in the faces of those that will be left behind when I leave…they are thinking “not her, too”. Alas, that is the nature of the beast when you have six month rotations. It takes that long to meet the right people and get the right momentum going. I’ve also noticed that people are more likely to speak their mind when they are a short timer, but this hasn’t been a problem for me!

Life does have its way of slowing us down...I am feeling those tugs within my body saying 'enough'. My right hamstring is still being fussy and my left knee is achier than it should be. I know I need to stay down, rest, but it is not real practical here. I did quit work at--egads--8:45 pm on Saturday night. So, it was only a 13 hour day, and that is a break.

I've only got 10 days left here in Kabul and before now, if I would have left that early, I would have felt guilty. You know I am still very much catholic in that my prime motivation is to avoid guilt. Since I've only got 10 days left, I am over feeling guilty...others need to pick up the slack. Did I tell you that I am a recovering catholic? This means that I've learned to rationalize my behavior...that is a purely man made skill! 

Speaking of rationalizing behaviors, bad behaviors in particular, I have to tell you that this Headquarters has some really silly stuff going on. The power of the mind to convince oneself that certain behaviors and actions are ok is amazing. I have run into a few folks that prove that if you never look inward, never self examine and never internalize anything, you can live in a state of bliss where nothing is your job, and nothing is your fault. This proves, of course, that ignorance is bliss. Further, if one refuses to learn or just does not learn, then there are no issues, and nothing needs to be worked, and life is good (that bliss thing again). These constitute the wedded bliss of bad behaviors--put them together, and if you can live with yourself, this deployment wouldn't be so bad after all. This brings me back to the power of the mind to get what it wants.

The Fourth of July Formation


Characters, July 4, 2010

We had a fairly normal day today, 4 July.  Sunday is normally a half day, which means about 10 hours of work.  They said the afternoon was a “relaxed” schedule, but they didn’t explain what that meant, or who would do the work if we didn’t, so most of us worked.  They held a 5K (ish) this morning, and they had a formation and ceremony followed by a bbq for dinner.  I wasn’t up to doing the run…still nursing my pulled hamstring.  I’ve been walk/running and bicycling instead.  I helped our ammo folks fly a bunch of flags over the compound, so they can send them to all the task forces with a certificate with today’s date.  That was pretty cool.

Here are a couple of new quotes that I’ve learned here.  As you can see, I work with some real characters.

Instead of “the cat is out of the bag” say, “the shit is out of the horse now”.
Instead of “I get what you are saying” say, “I’m smelling what you are stepping in”.
If you’re going to spend your time out in the middle of the street, don’t get upset if the bus runs you over and you end up underneath it.
That thing could pucker a lemon’s ass, it’s so sour.
Two puppies gnawing on a bone can do a whole lot better than one.
You can’t un-impregnate this thing.
The horse has left the stable unbridled.
It’s like attacking a Russian fort with a mop handle and two blind rats.
I know we have the 900 pound gorilla in the room to work, but don’t forget about the two chimpanzees.
I've smelled that dog before.
Believe deeds, not words.
And my favorite:  There is no "I" in teamwork but there are 3 "U"s in shut the fuck up.

Here are a couple of the characters I work with:

This is some of the USFOR-A Mobility Shop that I am a Liaison Officer too.  These are the ones that I spend 14 or more hours a day with.  Note the hedge hog up front.  His name is Meert.
These are my walking buddies, and my goofing off buddies.  We do laps around the compound during the day to stay sane.  We call them prison laps.
These are my fellow CDDOC Liaison Officers.  Two of us are at USFOR-A and the rest are at the International Security Assistance Force (ISAF) headquarters.  This photo is taken in a garden at ISAF.  A remarkable difference between US bases and NATO basis is that NATO bases have cafés and gardens everywhere, and US bases are dust, concrete and pavement.  I do prefer US chow halls to NATO chow halls though.

Walkabout, June 28, 2010

I’m on a walk about in Afghanistan, and I have two traveling companions.  I call them my entourage.  Both are new and this is their orientation.  After 4 months in country, I am old.  I am trying to pass all my knowledge to them, to others.  The purpose of this walkabout is to speak to folks that use the airlift system and teach tips and tricks.  It isn’t an easy system to use, but if you know how to use it, it works.  Problem is, folks are too busy to learn how to use it, and are very frustrated trying to use it.  It isn’t remotely as convenient as using commercial air.  You don’t get a confirmation number, you don’t get a guarantee.  That shouldn’t be a big deal…it is what it is.  We are in a war for Christ’s sake…if something more important comes up, then you get dumped.  It isn’t like airlines where that’s all they do is passengers, and passengers are their business.  War is our business.  Why to travelers in a war zone expect to be treated like they do at home?

Nevertheless, I am on the side of technology, and letting technology work for you.  It seems the Air Force is behind in this area.  Not just the Air Force, the military.  The system for moving cargo is a data base, which is maintained at Scott Air Force Base.  Of course it works there, they have unlimited bandwidth, relatively speaking.  It doesn’t work so well here, yet it is the “system of record” for generating airlift.  So users have to contend with it, and I get to take the blows for this crappy system because I am the forward Liaison officer.

As I visit other bases, I see that each one has their pluses and their minuses.  Rocket attacks.  Thats a minus.  But that same base has a donut shop, a TGI Fridays and an ice cream store, all on a wooden boardwalk.  Off the boardwalk, there are basketball courts, softball courts and field hockey courts.  They actually have leagues, and you can sit on the boardwalk and watch the games.  Another base has an excellent USO lounge, named after Pat Tillman, and excellent gym facilities (too bad there are 30,000 people trying to use them).  We were put up in Distinguished Visitor quarters at this base because we are “higher headquarters”.  I had my own room, with a big ass tv, computer and internet…it was hard to leave!

We were honored and humbled by a patriot ceremony on the flight line.  That is where you hold a formation to honor our fallen heroes as their casket is being carried to the airplane to go home.  It was two 23 year old Marines this time.  I lost it when they played taps, but I stayed at attention.  Some bases have these ceremonies every day, and yes; they do this for every single one.

This trip has made me grateful for my own home base, which is tiny, and relatively dust free.  Pluses are that we have hard billets, and good food.  The minus is that we are so small that we’re on top of each other, and surrounded by T walls, so there is no view.  I now have a third roommate.  We have two bunk beds in the room, but only two lockers.  Since my first roomie has been their longer, I gave her the choice to have our new roomie sleep on her top bunk OR give up her wall locker.  I’m glad that she chose to give up her wall locker, but now I have a roomie in my top bunk.  Our lockers are side by side, so we have to coordinate schedules so we aren’t bumping butts in the morning getting ready.  We are hearing that they are going to four to a room soon, so we’ll probably be sharing lockers next.  Hopefully, that won’t happen before I leave…I’m inside of 30 days to go back to Kuwait.  I’ll be there for a couple of weeks, then home (I won’t know the details until late July).

My husband and I celebrate our 21st anniversary on July 1!  This is the first I’ve missed, and hopefully the last.
Here are some photos of my walkabout.

I ran into Colonel Cori Powers, Nevada Army Guard, again.  She was a Lt. Colonel last time I saw her, when I first got here.

I love the wide open spaces here, and the views of the mountains.

My Entourage!



 The Boardwalk



I have been amused by the signs in restrooms here.  You’ll see all of the same signs as you see at home (be a sweetie, wipe the seatie, etc), but this one really caught my eye.  It was in the female restroom at one of the ammo storage points.  I am getting an immersion in how the Army works while I am here, and am learning that I really, really dig ammo folks.

Giggles, June 20, 2010

The connectivity here, no matter where you go, is intermittent at best.  That includes internet and phones.  Interestingly, the USO tent has free AT&T telephones that you can call back to the states, just like you were in the states, and these phones work wonderfully.  Maybe the military should call in AT&T?
I had the honor of visiting a school to deliver the school supplies you sent! It was a boys and girls school and we gave the gifts to the girls. We had 500 goodie bags, each filled with pens, pencils, markers crayons paper, scissors, glue, a toy and some hygiene items. Unfortunately, we didn't have enough. There are still supplies left and we will keep doing these deliveries until there is enough. 

It was an amazing trip, and I am still in awe.  We went to a pro-coalition village on the outskirts of Kabul.  The village has 20,000 people in it.  We met the mayor and our security detail was from the Afghan National Army (ANA).  The senior ANA was the guy in charge of training the ANA.   He had three stars, and he spoke very good English.   He and the mayor had a wonderful time flirting with us western girls. 
Through the interpreter, the mayor told us that the most important thing for this village is their mosque.  It is crumbled and they have a dream to rebuild it, and are hoping the Americans will help.  The Chaplain, who manages all the outreach programs, is trying to make that happen.  I asked if they would take money for the school and the interpreter said no, but they would take money for the mosque.  He explained that the single thing that will win the hearts and minds of the afghan people is to build mosques, not schools.  They will build their own schools. 
The school teachers were all female, and mostly Afghans.  We were instructed to not share any pictures of them on public websites, because their lives are in danger.  The Taliban will kill them if they find out.  The village that we were in is pretty secure—they have their own perimeter and security, and they don’t like the Taliban--but that doesn’t mean the Taliban won’t try to intimidate them.  We hear that in the south especially, the teachers are so scared that they don’t teach.
The school was an all boys school that was opened to girls a few years ago.  There must have been 1000+ kids, boys and girls, of all ages.  We were delivering to the younger girls class rooms, which were separated and gated, from the older girls classrooms.  The boys classrooms were across the compound.  The older girls and the boys looked on as we delivered bag after bag (500 of them) to the little girls.  They were excited, but I think sad, too.  The little girls were between the ages of about 6 to 10 or 11.  They were mostly well behaved.  I think the teachers rule with an iron fist….we saw one teacher beating them with a stick because they were rushing forward to get a bag.  They didn’t talk at all, just stared, and wanted to touch and get their pictures taken.  They like to shake hands.   They were smiling from ear to ear, until they saw the camera.  They want their picture taken, and love to see their picture on the screen, but they don’t seem to want to smile for the camera.
After we delivered the bags, we took a walk in the village to a day care.  We got to sit and play with the kids, aged 2 or 3 to about 6.  We took lots of pictures, and the ANA general was really cutting up with us—laughing and joking and playing really.  It was just us, the kids, the day care teachers and director (all female).  The kids were giggly and in awe.   Then we went to where the babies are…yep, I held a baby.  This little kid was adorable…it was looking at me and smiling and giggling.  It think it was about 8 or 9 months old.
Then we went to a room with the ANA guards, the General, the Director and us, and the Director told us the story of the day care, through an interpreter.  There are about 100 kids every day, with three teachers.  Most of them have parents that work…yes, their mothers work.  They are in day care from about 8 am to 5 pm.  It all sounded just like home.  She said she needs more teachers, better facilities, money, etc.  It was a plea for help, but the interpreter told us that any support should go to the mosque…I don’t think she realized that he was saying that.  She fed us tea and some cake kind of like angel food cake.  She was really wonderful and very proud of her day care, and was very excited for our visit.  One of the ANA soldiers sat next to one of the girls in our group—a blond, which is very unusual around here--and asked her to be his wife.  We all laughed.  Then I turned to the General, who was sitting next to me, and said something like “will you be my second husband”.  He cracked up and then we were all giggling.   
After that, we went to the crumbled mosque.  There were only walls, no ceiling, and no floor.  The interpreter told us that the females in the group could not go in, and that we were going to take a group photo from the outside, then the men would go in.  Then, we got to the entrance and the mayor invited us in!  We took a group photo inside.  I stood next to the mayor, and another military woman stood on the other side of him.  The mayor was very taken with being surrounded by us, so we started goofing off with him.  We put our arms around him and pretended to kiss him, and he was pretending to be embarrassed (he did turn red) and was giggling like a little boy.  He enjoyed himself immensely.  I do have photos of this, but alas, I cannot share.  His life would be in danger.
I am really taken with this country.  Its beauty is very much like Nevada and the people are really amazing.  I can’t imagine living the hardships that they do.  I can’t imagine having a foreign military come walking through my neighborhood, and bringing gifts of things that I only dreamed existed.  I can’t imagine thinking that if I accept this gift, I am a target, yet I still summon up the courage to accept it.  The General, the mayor, the director and teachers of this village do imagine a better life, and found the courage to try to make it happen.  Thank God they can imagine it, because their children are counting on them. 
Our interpreter pointed out that the average life span of Afghans is 45 years.  This means that 80% of the population doesn’t know what it was like here in the 60s and early 70s, and so can’t imagine anything different.  All they have known is war, poverty and despair.  The director and the teachers aren’t old enough to remember.  The Mayor is probably old enough to remember.  The ANA General is probably old enough to remember.  This village is their vision, and people in this village are starting to believe that something greater is possible.  I’ve got goose bumps just writing this.  This is counter insurgency operations succeeding.  We must stay the course to make sure that their vision is carried out, and not our vision for their country.  Their vision starts with a mosque, we must see that through.  (Of course, we can still send school supplies!).

During our visit, in the most private moments, we reduced the mayor and the general to giggles. I think we gave them a break from their hard life. To me, that is a stunning and wonderful thought, and it makes me giggle.

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